Reclaim your heart

“In all our lives, there is a fall from innocence. A time after which, we are never the same. ~ Stand By Me.

I’ve been so emotional lately.

I cry about everything.

TV shows. Movies. Books. Commercials.

EVERYTHING.

And in my musing, I wonder “When did I get so sensitive.”

My inner voice says:

You always have been.

Is that true?

After sitting with that for a while trying to find a connection to it I was reminded of moments and instances from my childhood that both revealed my heart and marked the loss of my innocence. Of my vulnerability and sensitivity.

Moments that hardened my heart, and taught me that sensitivity, vulnerability, emotions, and tears were weak. That I had to be hard. I had to be tough.

That was the beginning of a long road for me.

The beginning of a journey of self-abandonment.

So many moments and experiences in our lives teach us that we are inherently wrong and that we must change and be different, but we are uniquely made.

You are Uniquely You.

And…

You can come back home to yourself.

You can heal that wound.

Sit with it.

Connect with yourself.

Connect with your truth.

Listen for your inner knowing.

Learn to embrace solitude and your own company for a while.

Feel your emotions.

Nurture yourself.

Because….

“You can be innocent again. It's not true, what they say, that you can never get it back. You can. It's only that most folk cannot be bothered.” ~Catherynne M. Valente

Now…

I openly and willingly embrace every tear and every tug at my heart.

I honor and allow myself to feel and be with it all.

And in doing so I reclaim my innocence.

I reclaim my sensitivity.

I reclaim my vulnerability.

I reclaim my heart.